I am a 24 year old from Renton, Washington. Originally from Las Vegas, I moved up to Washington when I was 13. I recently moved back to the area after a 2 month adventure in Philly. Too crazy for me! I like to read, watch horror flicks and write poetry. I have a very bubbly personality and like everyone. But once you cross me, that's it. I rarely give second chances. But I judge noone. : )


SOME OF MY ORIGINAL POETRY

Goddess no more : (
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~ I'm working late tonight, alot of overtime,

People look at me and I look just fine.

I say I'm a goddess but I don't feel like one at all,

I feel like screaming and for help I should call.

If someone even reaches out a hand I'm gonna cry,

I'm in love with someone that doesn't love me,

To myself I cannot lie.

I feel frozen in time with the world passing me by.

I wish I could be shaken from this horrible trance,

If only he would give me one little chance.

I'm thankful for alot of things in my life,

But I still feel that stabbing pain, like a cut from a knife.

To feel unloved is one of the worst emotions,

My emotions go up and down like waves in an ocean.

But these days I rarely feel happy,

I wake up in the morning and always feel crappy.

Will someone realize what a good person I am someday?

To love me unconditionally, come what may.

I miss my love and think about him all day long,

He doesn't love me, when I thought he did all along.

He's mad at me for reasons I will never know,

To never know why is the biggest blow.

I guess I'll never have a close,

I just wish I was the one he chose.

Every night, as I lay down to sleep,

My mind finds the memories and all I can do is weep.

I miss his kisses and our late night talks in bed,

We were so in love, I thought he was the one I would wed.

He made me laugh, now he makes me cry,

I just wish he could bring an end to this and just tell me why.

How can you hate someone who loves you so much,

The one that made you shiver with just one touch?

What kind of conscience can you have,

To hurt someone without a care at all?

I swear this to god, again I will never fall.

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Love is an illusion
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Love is an illusion,

All love is, is hurt and confusion,

But I'm ok with that,

Just have fun, that's a fact!

Why put yourself out there,

and try to dare?

Putting your emotions on the line is dumb,

Most men are all bums!

Putting your heart at risk is even more stupid,

I think the one not doing there job is old cupid.

Everyone's a mess and getting divorced,

And the one's that are happy their marriages were forced!

Why has love now a days changed so,

Sex is so casual and everyone's self esteem is low.

Men are assholes and Women are whores,

Do I really need to say more?

The world we live in is depressing and love no longer exists,

The good old fashioned days are long gone and will surely be missed.

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Why does love have to hurt so bad?
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When we met, We had stars in our eyes,

I liked you, you liked me, there were no lies.

We cuddled up and kissed,

Your lips are the one thing I never thought I'd miss.

You told me your feelings were too strong,

I told you I loved you and cried for you I would always long.

You told me you couldn't feel like that, and you totally broke my heart,

You said you loved me but you couldn't give me your heart!

I fell in love and again I was hurt!

You said you stay forever and turned around and made me feel like dirt!

How could you do that?

When I love you and you love me and that's a fact?

Please come back to me,

I love you,

M

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Why are you so perfect?
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We met on a whim,

When the possibilities were endless but the hope was dim.

We laughed and talked about life,

You seemed so perfect, except for your kids and future wife.

We had everything in common, down to our favorite colors and favorite type of beer,

One night we almost kissed and in your eyes the meaning was clear.

The sexual tension was high and it was plain to see,

It was just the wrong place and wrong time for you and me.

The last night I saw you we had some beers and talked about your other half,

We sang and played darts and had one hell of a laugh.

That night you had something to say with tears in your eyes,

I know it was hard for you to forget and say goodbye.

I never gave you my number or a way to reach me,

Because I respected her and in her shoes I wouldn't want to be.

Just know that no matter what I will never forget you,

And even though you couldn't say it , I love you too!

My love always,

~ xxooxoxo ~

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My Release : )
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you left without sayin' a word,

like a fly away bird.

why'd you leave?

you made me feel like an ass,

leaving me so fast.

one minute you say you love me

the next you dissappear, where could you be?

at first I was worried, thinking you were hurt,

but now I'm just mad cuz you're a piece of dirt!

no call, no e-mail in over a week,

you're not hurt you're just a freak!

I did everything right, you were the clingy one!

and I put up with it because I thought you were fun.

Then you left and I'm here to ponder what I did wrong,

When in fact it was all you all along!

I'm not sad or upset anymore, it didn't take me long

to figure out in all this time where I belonged.

and you know what it wasn't with you,

and I'm ok with that and it's cool.

I know who I am and where I want to be,

and knowing I'm not with you makes me feel free!

so thank you for showing me the way,

thanks for being an asshole and . . . . . . . . . .

Have A Nice Day!

: )

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Life
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I've had alot of experiences in my life,

I've learned alot of things but I am proud to say I have no regrets.

I've lost some friends but in turn more beautiful people I have met.

I firmly believe in destiny and there is an ultimate plan for everyone,

Everything happens for a reason, and regrets there should be none.

Live life to the fullest and Live everyday like it's your last,

Look into the future and don't go searchin for what's past.

I've learned that for every bad person there are five more good hearts around the corner.

Look for the best in every heart and learn to laugh and smile more. : )

It takes more muscles to frown than smile,

and take time to slow down and smell the roses every once in awhile.

have a great day!

and remember to : )

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For the one I've never met
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I've never met you in person but your face haunts my dreams,

I hear your voice and my heart flutters, what does this all mean?

I hope to see you face to face some day,

but our schedules collide and all I can do is pray.

I have this unnerving feeling our connection is lost,

and I wish for that first meeting no matter what the cost.

The person I thought I knew had a sweet tone and a big heart,

but now you are short with your words and thoughts.

But now I've lost you and I doubt we'll ever meet,

Our time has passed, this I see.

You have been hurt and believe love to be a lie,

But to hold you and show you I care, for this I would die.

I have yet to meet you, but my feelings are true,

I dont know how deep they go, but I do know I care for you.

I know you will someday read this and I hope you see,

for even just a little bit, you also care for me.

I hope you know who you are,

even though you live so close, you are still so very far.

I wish I could show you what's in my soul,

but I dont think my hand you even want to hold.

I know you have drifted away,

So, all I can do is sit here and pray.

You have forgotten about me but I will never forget you,

to go to sleep and dream is all I have to do.

Please don't string me along,

because I know now all your feelings are gone. : (

xxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxxooxxooxoxoxoxxoo

goodnight my love and goodbye * ~ *

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This is just some of my poetry from awhile ago. As you can see my moods go up and down but I am mostly a positive person who always smiles. : )