I am just a person in this world, nothing special just blah. I am not a religious person but I can be spiritual. I believe in science and I also believe that
there may be something more to everything, but just not what other religions make it out to
be. Many things have happened in my life that are border line miracles so I would be close-
minded to not believe that there could be more than all of this. I just don't believe in the
hypocritical books written that we are all supposed to follow blindly. So no just because
I dress the way I do I am not a devil worshiper, to worship the devil you must
believe in the Christian god and that is something I do not. I am still searching for
my own answers...Sometimes I want to dissolve and just go the way I came...but I can't. Synthesized sugars, styrofoam cups, bleach in my hair, nail polish, false fabrics, and colored contact lenses not for purpose but just for looks. Now I am finally who I have always wanted to be. I wonder if people will see me from my past and be suprised at who I am now. Or perhaps people will see that everything is a distraction from who it is that lives within and tries to speak without breathing....Without thinking. I came as nothing more than a naked being so small so insignificant. And now I am so much older and so much wiser. My car, my shoes, my aesthetics are going to let people see that I am something. Why else would I dress how I do or say what I say? It is the same reason we all do what we do. We all have looked so near and far for a form of acceptance. Whether we intimidate people, please people, or react somewhere in between we all want people to talk about us and have respect for us. The funny thing behind coolness is the mysterious air that goes with it. Just wanting people to see, respect all that I am but getting to know me will truly destroy it. And the fact is that I am not that cool so I will shut up and act mysterious.
That is death. We are bound with all these people that help make this world what it is. Whether we love to hate it, hate to love it, or we can live in peaceful contentedness, we must respect that. We will never be more than that same kid who came out. One day we will go back to the ground the way we came and we will never ever be able to take anything with us.

My name is Stephanie, 16ish in San Antonio. I am sure you are a wonderful thoughtfull individual, but quite frankly, I don't care. Admit it..everyone is too wraped up in their own thing to really notices how much time you put into your outfit today. Instead..sit back with knowing eyes. breathe. have faith. live.


Since everyone keeps asking me if I have msn messenger or whatever I've decided to put it...

Msn: atara1
Yahoo: lilsteph78229
Aim: numbnutso



Sexiest person here!!!Its steph [Mistress Of Puppets]

I'm worth exactly: $1,122,000.00.
I don't think i'm worth anything...since my life sucks and everything is screwed up...Why does everyone want to die now...I use to be the only one, until everyone made me happy and now, people are saying they need to die...this world is so fucked up...maybe i should die with them, because how can i be happy without them....I Hate Life... And what the hell is wrong with these people calling themselves goths or punks, i mean thats just fucking stupid...To label yourself isn't cool...It pisses me off when people call themselves that...The only people who can call themselves something is skaters...Because it is true they skateboard so they are skating..And the people that put shit up asking people to talk to them, i mean that's just desperate...they have to come on the internet to find someone because they can't find anyone...Maybe they are giving you a hint..People just need to be themselves and keep to themselves...


Bands I like:
CKY
Slipknot
Mudvayne
Marilyn Manson
Metallica
blink 182
Green Day
Linkin Park
Disturbed
Korn
Billy Talent
Audioslave
ACDC
Alice in Chains
Adema
MushroomHead
Poison
Rage Against The Machine
AFI
Alient Ant Farm
Alkaline Trio
Black Sabbath
Bloodhound Gang
Bowling for Soup
Brand New
Boxcar Racer
Coal Chamber
Cradle of Filth
Deftones
The Distillers
Drowning Pool
Evanescence
Finch
Foo Fighters
Godhead
Godsmack
Guns N' Roses
Iron Maiden
Jack off Jill
Jimmy Eat World
Kittie
Less than Jake
Machine Head
Murderdolls
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
The Offspring
OPM
Orgy
Ozzy Osbourne
P.O.D.
Paparoach
A Perfect Circle
Powerman 5000
Puddle of Mudd
Rammstein
Rancid
Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Rob Zombie
Silverchair
Slayer
Soundgarden
Staind
Static-X
Stone Sour
Sugarcult
Sum 41
System of a Down
Thrill Kill Kult
Tool
Transplants
Type O Negative
The Union Underground
Unloco
The Vandals
The White Stripes
White Zombie
The Clash
The Ramones
1208
Alexisonfire
Allister
All Rights Reserved
Amber Pacific
Anatomy of A Ghost
Another Damn Dissapointment
Anti-Flag
The Aquabats
Arkham
ASG
Atmosphere
Audio Karate
Autopilot Off
Bad Religion
The Beautiful Mistake
Big D and the Kids
Billy Talent
Blackfire
Bleed the Dream
Brazil
Break Dance Vietnam
Break the Silence
The Briggs
Bouncing Souls
Boys Night Out
The Casualties
Chronic Future
The Code
Codie
Coheed and Cambria
The Commercials
Crowned King
Don't Look Down
Die Hunns
Dynamite Boy
Early Man
The Early November
Eight Fingers Down
The Erks
The Eyeliners
A Faith Called Chaos
Fall Out Boy
Fighting Jacks
Flogging Molly
From Autumn to Ashes
From First to Last
The F Ups
Go Betty Go
The God Awfuls
Guttermouth
Happy Campers
Hazen Street
Hidden in Plain View
H Is Orange
The Hurt Process
Hurry Up Offense
Icon
IMA Robot
Immortal Technique
In So Far
The (International) Noise Conspiracy
J4
Jessy Moss
Juliette & the Licks
Keg
Kill Radio
The Kinison
Lakeside
Lars Frederiksen and the Bastards
Left Alone
Letter Kills
Lennon
Lillix
Lordz of Brooklyn
Lylah
Madison
Mae
Matchbook Romance
The Matches
Melee
Minority
Montys Fan Club
Motion City Soundtrack
Much the Same
My Chemical Romance
Non Phixion
NOFX
Northstar
Only Crime
Opiate 4 the Masses
Oreon
O're The Ramparts
Over It
The Phenomenauts
Piebald
Pipedown
Planet Smashers
Plans for Revenge
Potluck
Pulley
The Q
The Red West
Reeve Oliver
The Revolution Smile
Rise Against
Rolling Blackouts
Rose Hill Drive
Rufio
Saosin
Senses Fail
Shiner Massive
Side 67
The Silence
Silverstein
Single Frame
Slowdance
The Snakes, The Cross, The Crown
The Sounds
Spell Toronto
Split Sense
Stars Hide Fire
Straight Outta Junior High
Stretch Armstrong
Stimulator
Stole Your Woman
Suffocate Faster
The Swear
Taking Back Sunday
Thicker Than Thieves
A Thorn For Every Heart
Thursday
Thought Riot
Tiger Army
The Tossers
Trophy Scars
Truth in Fiction
Underminded
Under Oath
Unit F
Van Stone
Victory Within
Wanted Dead
Washington Social Club
Windsor
The Working Title
ZOX


There is somemore but I'm tired so i'll put them later...


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