Day 1


Dear Boy,
          Geez... you're even invading my brain too? Shit, you're not even here, and yet you are because I find myself thinking about you. Why can't I let you go? How can I let go of what I've never had? I don't want to. I want to hold onto this crush... but that's all it is, isn't it? Just a crush? God, that song is now stuck in my head. "Am I crazy or falling in love, is it real or just another crush?"
          
          I wish I could be in your arms at least once... to look into your eyes and see an ocean of emotion staring back.

          Reading this, I can't help but to think of myself as a freak... one writing about a fantasy that will never exist in real life....

          Why can't I get you out of my head? My writing isn't working anymore. Damnit, the facebook status I wrote, confessing my feelings for you without using your name only lasted until 4th period, when I started writing this.

           I only get to see you in College Reading, which is the class we dropped today. I was looking forward to seeing you smile and laugh with your friends, a place I could never reach. Chantelle would have my head on a platter if I tried to talk to you. She's one of those girls. The ones that look down at girls, geeks like me. That's why we'd never work out. I'm too afraid that your friends would isolate you.

           I never realised Emily was your neighbor. That surprised me quite a bit to tell you the truth. She offered me some baby pictures of you, and no matter how creepy it is, I couldn't say no. You're my secret obsession, one I will never act on. Emily D. told me, "You can't help what your heart wants." and you know, it's true. It sucks, but there really is nothing I can do. I can't get you out of my head, so this is how I am coping with it. To write to you, and for you to never see it. Sure, everyone else can, but you can't... it would destroy me.

           I got to see you at lunch today, that made me absolutely happy. You were smiling with Eddie, Shayna, and Emily S. You looked to be having a fantastic time. Of course it was David's birthday today, despite him wanting it to be. To spite him, Eric started singing the birthday song in the most obnoxious, happy voice he could manage. That made me laugh, and then at your table, you and your friends started clapping. Immediately when I looked over at you, I felt my face flush scarlet. I couldn't help but chuckle lightly.

           I won't see you for the rest of the day... at least it'll save me the embarassment of my face defying me and changing colors like a chameleon... but it also saddens me. But hey, I'll see you tomorrow my obsession... we have class together, and it's the longer period because of reading. Hmm... maybe I'll just pretend to read, and just talk to Eric, looking over his shoulder to see you.

Sincerely, The Love Sick Puppy.

Day 2

          Haha, only day 2 and I'm already planning to confess my feelings to you. What's the worse that could happen? A bruising to my already non existant social status? Ha. That's a joke. I've never really cared for the social statuses of high school... it's bullshit.


          Got to go, bell is gonna ring. - The Love Sick Puppy