i have no friends.ok i have a net friend.im not a ppl porsen i cant spell verey good.i love kids my hole family is crazzy.i hate myself ill porbly be one of the ppl u here about on the news that kill there self.oh i have a Suicidal Depression.............................................................................................................................
heres a funny story
about 6 months ago me,my brothers,my cuzin kc,and her boyfriend went fishing while we were there the boys were drinking.my cuzin and i were swimming for awhile it started getting dark so my cuzin and i went to go get some fire wood becuz the boys wouldnt and well kc and i were getting cold and hungry so we went up by the bridge looking for wood when our light went out so we hollered for one of my brothers to bring us a new light.well when he got there he relit our light some people came down by us so we started getting the wood loaded up to take back down to the lake where the other boys were a few mins later we heard a loud sound then one of the people we saw earlier said hey that guy just fell from up there we ran over to find kc boyfriend on the ground we thought he was dead but he wasnt we asked if he was all right he said yeah but his big toe was hurting we all laughed he then got off the ground and walking back and forth then we headed back to our lake site where my big brother was saying the aliens pushed him off we were all laughing for like an hour when my cuzin kc fell in to the fire.my brother said the aliens picked kc up and dropped her on the fire.he started saying the aliens were going to get us all and drop us off things or out of the sky

here r some poems i made hope u like

pain
the pain in my heart is strong.i fear to let people
near me it even makes me a little weary of the
people that want to be near me.i fear my pain is
to strong even for me to carry i hate that i cant
carry my pain with out hurting the people around
me.the pain i carry is mine it makes me weary
when people want to be near me.but the pain is
mine to carry

why
why am i alone? why is it scary when im alone? iv been alone all this time. so why is it scary? can anyone hear me? why is it scary? its not like iv never been alone. could it be i feel the need to let him near me? no thats to scary i dont want anyone near me. id rather have them fear me. rather then come near me. why would he want to be near me? why cant he just fear me? im starting to feel weary becuz he dose want to be near me. so ill show him to fear me so he wont want to be near me

jewels
i once had a dog named jewels she was blind in one eye.it kills me inside knowing she die. i wont lie i cryed. but the pain was still inside. i tryed letting it lie but the pain wont die. it hurt knowing she didnt know i loved her. i dont even know if she knew i cared. i tryed showing that i cared. but i knew it would hurt when she hit the dirt i just wish she knew i did care and love her

the darkness in my heart
as the day passes by i feel the darkness in my heart strangthen. i feel the need to hurt people around me. so they can see how much i hurt. i feel free when i hurt someone other then me. so plz stay clear of me. so i wont want the darkness in me. i start to want it more when you come near me. so plz dont stay near me!!!!

kyle
he just wanted to make
me smile and i did for a
while.but i started thinking
for along while why everyone
keep asking why i loved kyle
i cryed for the longest while.
i started to hate that no one
believed i loved kyle.so i
want to ask kyle why he wanted
to make me smile but i got scared
and decided to wait for awhile
but then i relized i wanted to
make kyle smile.but i know it
would take along while then i
relized it would be best if kyle
just hate me for awhile becuz
that would make kyle smile even
if it was just alittle while
thats why i had to hurt kyle

the shower that changed everything
i went to take a shower
when i smelt a flower
it was strange that i
felt a change it was
like a hour when every
thing went sour.i cryed
as soon as i got out of
the shower when i relized
my dog was gonna make a
flower i wanted to die
for half an hour all
becuz i took a shower

As I Cry Myself To Sleep

as i lay here in my bed crying myself to sleep.i realize that ill never change ill always be the same.as i lay here in my bed surrounded by the dark cold night i cry myself to sleep.as i think about what i want and what ill never be.i wish for the end to come of me.i know i havent been through much but what i have hurts me.iv only been here 20 years but still iv seen and heard alot of stuff that hurt me.i know i havent been through as much stuff as others.but iv had enough im tired of trying to change.what i now know will never be of me.i cant stand people to be near me......i dont want people to fear me i just dont want anyone near me.