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  idk whats wrong with me right now, i'm trying so hard to make everyone happy and i just keeping getting burned. my sisters don't like the fact that my boyfriend is in college and they keep on putting all these doubts in my head and its making everything so hard but i really do love him and i want to be with him. The only thing is that right now i'm not sure how he feels about me.I don't know i think right now i'm not doing a very good job at being a girlfriend. well... like i always say... everything will be better in a week or so.


bye guys.... (THIS IS THE MOST RECENT UPDATE)

LOVE YOU

********COMPLETLY HEART BROKEN***********

i am not a very shy person at all unless it comes to telling someone how i feel, then you can just expect me to lie my socks off. i'll tell you straight up what i think and i'm not afraid to be told the truth either. i would much rather someone tell me what they think then go behind my back and hurt my feelings that way. i'm really scared of guys... i've been hurt by them a lot and i've even been in a postion that was un-called for and made me feel very violated... i still haven't gotten over it so please don't try to be all baby baby with me cause it doesn't work. i try to keep my distance from everyone untill i know i can trust you. i like to observe my surroundings instead of getting in over my head, while also having fun at the same time.i have a part of me that no one knows about and its never been shown to anyone, so if i seem kinda distant just give me time.

****feeling a lot better*******
well i'm over all that crap ^^^ now and i'm happy .... well most of the time anyways. sometimes it just take help from others to know your not alone. thanks guys!! love ya

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life is going better then how it used to but i'm still the same.... i still feel lost and empty like no one really cares idk i just don't think this is real.... i've never felt real here. maybe i'm not supposed to be here . i think i was brought here by mistake i just don't feel like i belong at all anywhere. everything i once loved i now hate and no longer have passion for.so then whats there for me?

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the tears drip slowly down my cheek onto the burning flame making it flicker
the wax pours onto my skin as i tilt it towards my heart to try to mend the wound upon which you caused
my heart is now torn and will never be mended, i can no longer go on with this hollowness i keep
i feel so alone and now nothing matters to me
i want nothing more to do with this place or you
you have brought this pain and you will be to blame for the destruction that i am yet to complete for it is you that brought my soul down to the depth of hells sweet gates
it is you that condemed me here
it is your fault i'm no longer capible to move on the next world, the world of peace and light
for because of you i'm lying dead in my grave of sorrow and despair, all because of your deceit and lies
and now i shall forever be destined to walk across this plane to greet the rest of the broken hearted that will be doomed because of another bastered that betrayed them for the heart of another.


RONNA LOVES YOU!!!!!!

BUT BOB LOVES YOU MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO...RONNA OVES YO MORE....!!!!!!!!!!!



*see what happens when ou give out your pw?lol love ya MORE!