Read my diary, I'm using it now.


Wow... I haven't been here in forever...

anyway, I just have one correction.---

My hairs longer, long enough that I put it in a ponytail, and better yet, no one's made fun of me for it! ^.^

Out of the blue, but I've never been sure about how to write "no one" is it a hyphen, a single word, or two seperate ones?

      -oldness barrier-
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Why is their pain, or more specificly, why is there such a thing as uncomforable, and if there is such a reason, then why is there existance, so that we may only suffer?

Tell me, I'm dieing to know...


If you have anything to say to me, about what I write, or just mingling, go ahead, even if it's just "Wow..."...
You know what, even if you don't want to, even if you're the most anti-social person in the world, send me a message anyways.


My favorite quote...
"The only thing worse than remembering a bad memorie, is remembering a good memorie, one of the most wonderful in your life, and knowing that it can never happen again..."

Guess who said this, send me your guess, and I'll tell you if your right, but I won't give you the answer if you're wrong.

Heh...I'm back, after a long time...But I don't come bearing good news...

Well, I guess I'm using this as my diary, but I don't care, you all can see what I think, and if you want me to shutup, go away...I don't need you now...

I'm depressed, I got depressed recently, I've been thinking about things that happened a while ago, and my regrets... My past led me here, where there is someone who was, and still is, very dear to me...

I need music, without music, I'd die, I get depressed, and I cry, without music my past comes back to haunt me, and let's just say...I didn't have the best life...

My life is better than it was, but like I said, I've been thinking about my past, my recent past...kinda recent at least. What do I need to say, I forget, I started with a purpose, but now I can't remember it, and I probobly couldn't put it down in words even if I did.

I'm begging to God, that that person reads this, I miss them, but things have happened that, to put it lightly, have caused things to change. I think I'm going to cry... I've changed a bit, but I'm still me, and you wouldn't notice the changes, but they're there, deep in my sycie (for instance, I care about my spelling, even though I'm still bad at it).

I still can't remember what I wanted to say, or rather, I do, but I don't know how to say it... I don't know where I'm going in my life. I'm in the most top notch class in my school... Officialy one of the 9 smartest kids in the school... But I feel like I'm one of the 9 dumbest... It's not that I don't get the work, that I don't do it, or that it's hard... It's just, my past school life-style is comming back to haunt me, I'm starting to get picked on, a lot. Or mabey it's just me, and it's not really happening, I don't know. That's it, I don't know, my mind's gone, long gone, and I don't know if it'll come back. No, my mind's not gone... Nothings gone for good, but my spirit's gone for a vacation, and it won't be back untill I find some things out, and that might not happen for a long time.

Nothing will ever be the same for me, too much has changed... Too much has happened...






-Everything past this is out of date, most is still relevant though-

-Except for my hair, which is longer, and I want it to grow faster, I'm much less stressed with long hair-




Before I say anything, I want you to please vist True-Hearts , and please consider it thouroughly, I need poems to do the poem of the week.

Also, I don't want to brag, and I'm not trying to, but I need to vent, I need to express myself, don't be offended, please don't think I'm wierd, or a jerk, for thats what I'm afraid of...

I have the emotions on a three year old, and yet I get bored in classes a year ahead of me. I have an extremly fast running mind, I can comprehend virtually anything, and yet can break into tears at the slightest teasing. I get ideas, I know how to make them happen, but I don't, I get frustrated when I don't have the funding or materials to make my inventions. My mind kills me, it may be fast, but it's so fast it hurts, and I often can't get it to think about what I want it to think about. I think of stories, or rather just one, but I don't put in on paper, or rather I can't, I don't know, or I rather I can't tell, my brain won't cooperate. It would take years, and millions of gigabytes to completly explaine myself in this, or would it only take five sentences, I don't know, but I can't, or I won't, I don't know. No one has, and no one will ever understand me, and I have yet to learn how to live with my mind, my thoughts. And perhaps that is why I still cry at the sight of spilt milk.

I'm tall, skinny, so skinny my doctor's gonna make me take 'fat pills' if I lose any weight, I have pretty short (I wish it didn't grow so fast!) dirty-blond hair, I have blue eyes that are sourounded by bags and shadows, making them look five miles away, I can see the tendons on my hands when I grip a pencil, I HATE handwritting (my hands sweat, and then later peel when I do), I can type pretty fast, I play Runscape (check out www.runescape.com ), I play Achaea ( www.achaea.com ), I hate stupid people, even though I often am one. My parents don't buy insurrance on their computers, they consider me their own personal insurrance.


I am a A Sun Dragon!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Sun Dragon on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, Sun Dragons take the side of the noble and good....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, my inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos....
As far as magical tendancies, my inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy....
During combat situations, whether by spells or by claw, my inner dragon will do whatever it takes to get the job done....
From a distance, the Sun Dragon appears as though it is made of pure flames. In truth, it is not made of flame at all but it does maintain a constant should of flames around it's body. This allows for both very effective armor and a stunning appearance.'
During its adolescent stages, a Sun Dragon's body begins to excrete an oily substance through it's skin which burns slowly over time, like napalm. When it reaches this age, the Dragon is ignited by it's elders. Sun Dragons are totally immune to fire.'
After it is ignited, the Sun Dragon's flames will continue to blaze for the whole of the dragon's natural life span. Sun Dragons are extremely fierce in combat. The Sun Dragon is among the noblest breed of dragonkind. They are revered both for their ferocity in combat and their great wisdom.
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This Dragons favorite elements are: Tiger's Eye and Nobility of Spirit

http://Dragonhame.Com


Check out my poles!

Also, visit my wiki page, True-Hearts , no making fun, no teasing.

http://kevan.org/brain.cgi?Snafex


Some stuff I found on others pages that I think is cool...

Friendship iz like a glass u av 2 handle it wi care once it iz broken it iz hard 2 repair so thats y am lucky 2 av a m8 like u


sex, drug, rock n’ roll
speed, weed, birth control
lifes a bitch, then you die
so fuck the world and lets get
HIGH


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