Ok, im gona ramble on for a while, cause im hyper and my view of the world is, well... different shall we say. So read this if you feel like it idc. Im gona to cover most anything, call it a memoir. Oh and btw if you havnt already noticed, i cant spell. Hope you can make out what im saying, if not too bad. Also im not gona go back and check for grammar so it comes out how it comes out. (damn, im rambling on and on and im not even to the rambleing part yet) Any questions message me and i'll answer them... or try to anyway.

Something i'v noticed is that everyone seems to be depressed. Weather its over impractical things or something that can be worried about. Everyone seems to come off with an attitude that hates the world. Now not to say that there arnt happy people out there, and if you send me some message about how happy you are and that i have no right to say you have an attitude, then stop a second and think about what i just said... Back to the point on hand. It seems to me that if you just stop thinking all depressed and stop looking at the bad things in life then you will not be so depressed, and maybe a bit happier. Now dont get me wrong, there are many things you have the right to be sad, or upset over, but you should just be sad for a little while, not forever. Not to be harsh but get over it, whats done is done, and there isnt much you can do about it. You can try to fix them but most of the time you cant do much about it. Also, people are subjected to such depressing things. I mean sure some people look at it and laugh, but others actually take it seriously. Like there is a servey that, if you put in you Name, favorite color, favorite number and gender, it will tell you how and when you will commite suicide and what your suicide note will say. Now isnt that sad, i know there are a few people out there who will do exactly what it says, when it says. I know this seems crazy and you think "That sure wont ever be me" (OMG, *stunned silence* I sound just like my teacher, DAMN. I promise everyone im not some counsciler person who thinks hes better than everyone else... actually i think just the opposite, im below most people, well kinda. But still thats another point that i will get to later. Oh an if you need help with anything,i can probably help, so like message me or something....... yeah.) Anyway What was i talking about *thinks for a sec...* oh yeah, so like watch out for that kinda thing. So just have like a happy out look on life, and it will help you through most things. (this is about to evolve into a whole other topic completely so be ready for the change. THis is the only warning, cause it will happen again without a warning. And try to figure out where it changes subject and when im just talking about different parts of the same subject.)
Speaking of which i have an out look on life in general. There are a few things you can do to really excell in life. This is kinda a collection of my own and other's experiances, and those little chain-letters that say something like, 30 things Guys want girls to know, or vice versa (another thing. Ive never figured out if its vica versa, or just vice versa...*ponders it a moment, then moves on*)
When you talk to people, pay attention to EVERYTHING. Not just their "tone" or their body language, but everything. Look at it all togather. Tone, body language, whats goin on around you, and just everything. (its kinda hard to explaine to random people without knowing their experiances... getting off subject again. Not like theres much of one anyway but still.)
Next, absorb everything. Think about what goes on around you. (Like right now i could tell you something about jsut about anything in my room, just from the way it sounds, and smells.) Use all your senses always. Absorb things you learn in class, things you see in the room, what people are doing, try to imagiane what they are thinking. Like Atticus says, "You will never really know someone unless you walk around in their shoes for awhile... and see what they see for a day. Pay close attention to anything and everything. And not just in a room full of people. Think about whats happening when your just sitting at your desk alone, reading these words, listen to the noises in your room or the sound of silence. Or in the office, on the job, in the park, on the road, anywhere and everywhere.
Also, you need someone you can talk to about anything. And i mean anything. From sex to physics, to just what you did 5 minutes ago, down to the most mundaine thing you did today. You need someone who will listen to everything and comment on everything with you. It could be anyone, just someone you can talk about the world to. Someone you could tell your deepest darkest secret to. Cause i know keeping a secret all alone is hard to do. Especially if its a good one and no one knows about it. Just make sure they are not gona "spill the beans," so to speak. It could be anybody, a close friend, a relitive, or some random person on the street you start a conversation with. You and that person need to stay in contact with each other for as long as possible though.
(OK i know the last paragraph was a bit confusing. So, when i mean anyone, i mean ANYONE. Someone you can keep coming back to. Wheither it's some random person or someone you know, you need to find them and keep them close.) And remember boys and girls these are just opinoins so dont get all destrought thinking im trying to tell you what to do. :)

(This is all i feel like typeing tonight, so i will comeback later and continue. Im tired and its late, so later. :P

I almost didnt come right tonight. I just didnt feel like it. I was bakeing cookies earlier(about 12:00 am. Its about 1:07 am. EST btw) and i was standing there just thinking about things, and tonight.... no this morning i want to write so much, but i doubt i will finnish. If i finnish then i will have writen many many times what i have already written. Plus on top of that im trying to watch so it may take a while. Lmao.

So i will kick off with a little anecdote. I was standing there rolling out the cookie dough talking to my mom. (And i need to explaine about my mom soon, cause their is much to say.) Any way she was tell me about a dream. She said she was in an outfiting room and there was a dress laying on the floor for her. It was a much to small for her, but as she was putting it on, she became just the size for it. Once she had the dress on she felt very beautiful, and was gloating about her beauty. Which brings me to my point. Beauty. Its an odd thing. everyone loves it, i myself are very attracted to beautiful things, yet supposedly it is a sin to covet. In other words it is a bad to want something, or to lust for an object. Now i could sit here and argue morals with you all day and night, but i dont feel like writing it all down here, so if you want to argue just message me and i will be happy to explaine all my views at once,(not that you could comprehind all of them is a different story completely) Moveing on. And yet its a natural thing for humans to be attracted to beauty. What we call beauty is basicly our species trying to survive. For instance, you see a beautiful woman, and the reason she is so beautiful is because of her large breasts. Now the reason we think of her a beautiful is becasue she has atiquite supplys for being a mother, because she can carry milk for her babies. As for beauty for men... from men rather, is somewhat different. Its based on how strong they are, or how fit they are. Not saying this is always the case, for men or women because different people have different ideas of beautiful. But it sure helps some of us put it into better perspective. So, what is one to do about this problem? One can try and look past this and try to look at everything in a bleak pov. (I shall talk about Point Of View many times, just so you know POV = Point Of View) But that would lead you into depression and thus we have a never ending cirlce. So again, what is one to do? Well you can try to look past the physical beauty and look towards someone's personality. that works to, but you cant have just a great personaliy, cause what if they were the best person in the world. Like the had life all figured out, and they were happy, cheerful, bright, and just a great person. But they could take care of themselves. They had no hygine at all, and they very rarely ate the right nutruious things. Then that would be a hard person to be around. So apperently you need someone who takes care of themselves (which in essence is beauty), has a great personality and... what else. Lets sit here and think a moment, what else could possibly be important???? .... Hey!! i got it. Brains. You need someone with brains. Someone who you can talk to, someone who you can ask questions and atleast most of the time get a correct response. Its ok if they joke around, or dont give you a straight response everytime, cause then you'd think of them as a know~it~all right. Just someone smart enought to help you out sometimes. So we are up to what, 3 things we need. Personality, beauty, and knowlage. Now i know many of you think i may know~it~all, and i do know many many parts of it... which brings us to another question. What is IT. I'll get into that later... Someone remind me cause im sure to forget. Back to the point at hand. I may know part of it, but by no means at all do i know it all. I am far far far from understanding all of it. Soooo... again is it enough. Beauty, knowlage, and personalty.
I think that may be enough. Call it a triangle of relationships. Or maybe not. Its up to you. So i have come to the conclusion, you need beauty. Which brings up another interesting thing. Dont rely on just physical beauty. Some people are just naturaly born beautiful. Some girls are "endowed" with bigger breasts or, a better face, or a nice ass. But again this all so depends on what you call beautiful. And some guys are born with stronger, faster, or better fetureson him. And that cant be helped.... (DAMN, i lost my train of thought, and now i cant remember what my point was. ****!! Now im slighly pissed, but hey, theres not much i can do about it. so im just gona try and let it go. *sits and calms himself down... "Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out..." * Ok, i remember my original point. So beauty, its an everyday part of life. The beauty of people, and the beauty of objects... that sounds so bad. It has a... a... negitive conotation to it. Beauty is well, just that beauty. The beauty of a sunset in the summer, or the the changing of colors of the leaves in fall, or of a mountain top during a winter. So beauty is essencal. Try to work around it and incorporate it in with everything. Try to let beauty, knolage, and personality balance each other out. Which is very hard to do, i myself have not had very much sucess. If you are looking for a formula for what part is most important, well im at a lost for that. Ive been thinking about that this intire time, and i have yet to come up with a solution. Many say that personality is the strongest part of the three.
Srry this is as far as i can get tonight. (Its 2:30 EST, for anyone who cares) I wanted to get farther, but its late and im tired. As i said before i highly doubted that i would get very far, but hey it was fun. And i appologize for the topic. I started out talking about beauty, and ended up describeing what you need to start a relationship.(another thing i could sit and talk about for ages) And i would love to if anyone really wants me to. Write to you later... if i feel like it.

This is an ongoing project so come back sometime why dontcha, and see how its comin.

This is about all i can fit here, so check out my "diary" for more.
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I'm tired. Tired because I'm overworked.

Here's why:


The population of this country is 273 million.


140 million are retired.


That leaves 133 million to do the work.


There are 85 million in school, which leaves 48 million to do the work.


Of this there are 29 million employed by the federal government, leaving 19 million to do the work.


2.8 million are in the armed forces reoccupied with killing the Taliban.
Which leaves 16.2 million to do the work.


Take from the total the 14,800,000 people who work for state and city governments And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work.


At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals, Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work.


Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons. That leaves just two people to do the work.


You and me.


And there you are sitting on your ass, at your computer, reading jokes.


Nice, real nice
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