How should I describe myself? Truth is I'm a bitch, worse than that I'm a crazy bitch. We all started as primordial slime buckets and evolved into smarter, nicer, generally more attractive creatures but we all at some point were slime. Some of us still are...

I think that the ability to rise from the muck only comes after realizing what crap we really are. For most there will never come this realization because there are always others to blame immaturity, violence, or obsession on. I can blame people for treating me badly, but that merely perpetuates the cycle for who will I treat badly as a result?

I live now with one phrase etched into my mind:

When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves. ~Victor Frankl


I know that people I've hurt may read this, and if you are now... know this--I am changed, humbled, and truly sorry.

I have said I have changed a multitude of times but here is my proof. I will not seek you out. I have no desire to. I will not involve my life with yours ever again but I hope you're happy. For the first time in my life, I am.

I love my life just as it is and the people that have helped me get here.

(Guess when the frontal lobe finishes developing the world really is a changed place... ;) lol )