Need is such an ugly word, like
a bleeding heart in a fist, or
a heart without a fist to clench it.
I loved you wrong but still I loved you,
and if you had been like me and
had no other love, that might have
been enough,
mightn't it?
Grief is a deep word, full of screams
and thrumming drowning, so this must
not be grief, this silent shredding
of soul and burning inaction.
I never wanted to take it back but
once taken back it seemed everything
must be taken back, so put it all into
reverse and leave it clean and neat and
empty: heart, gift, life.
Lonely is a shameful word, like shame
itself. Denying sin we seek repentance
and ask every shadow, Is this the way?
Is this the way from nowhere?
Ugly words burn in potential as the pen
hovers over the page, like photographs
in flame, and silent exploding cars from
the muted action movie in the background.
Flickering t.v. screen trembling in time with
the false, tense air. Helpless.
Regret and rage.
Written by [
little flag]