An Annoying Dream



I'm back again. I went to Italy, after all this time, hoping for any kind of result regarding my previous written problems. (Only Time Will Tell, Patience Is The Way.)

Well, let me tell you one thing: Italy is a b-e-a-utiful country. I actually needed that quote to define it. Italy is like the gem on a ring.

But, back to the problems.

Everything turned out WAY different as planned. In the end, I barely spoke to Minke, even though our eyes met constantly. I could see her eyes watch me, even when I wasn't looking back.
Nearly all of my attention went to Cindy.

I did my best. I was sweet to her constantly, I offered everything I could. I carried all the weight she could've had. And with that I mean ALL the weight. I got in between problems concerning her, making sure she wouldn't notice, nor get shouted at. I carried her stuff through the cities, just so she could walk around with a smile. She sat on my lap however she wanted, even though I was as uncomfortable as I could possibly be. I sacrified it all to her.

Result: She constantly gave me glares. Glares of Seduction. She showed me all her beauty, everything there was. She made me feel all warm on the inside. Everything. She dressed up way too sexy, and so on. It was amazing.

In the end, it bit me though. What she did was... Something I didn't expect. She walked away. She showed me all she could be, and then softly whispered in my ear: "All this, you cannot have". Of course she didn't do this literally, but she sure showed me her cold and bitter side.

I'm burning on the inside, of irritation and affection. She is the one thing that currently irritates me the most, but at the same time, the one thing I want. This girl... She is eating me on the inside.

Coming back from Italy felt weird. It felt like went there, and immediately came back, as if nothing happened. Only these feelings remain. I never spoke to Minke or Renate, I gave it all to Cindy. She took it all, giving me nothing back in the end.

Italy was waking up from a dream, wondering what it was about.
All I can feel is the results of a dream.
An Annoying Dream



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