... ok well...i recently had a beautiful baby boy. His name is Maysen Alyn and he was born oct 26 2007. I live in michigan... so fun! BTW im really short and lovin it... im only 5 ft. tall... most people i know are atleast like 5' 9" but short lil ol me....lol...yeah sorry had to say that... I have a very unusual life i got married at 16 moved out of my grandparents house at 17 found out my who my real father is 2 weeks before my wedding and now getting ready to go through a divorce at 18 how wonderful.

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check out my myspace...my email is strawberryprincess666_999@yahoo.com
or just im me on yahoo.... if you do try to talk to me on yahoo mention your from here

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my friends write poetry... here are a few my ex wrote... btw we are like best friends now so yeah...



NOT ALONE



I’m stuck in between two constants when I think about you.

And I know they dictate every little thing I do.

Being with you is guaranteed to cause me only pain.

But the look in your eye makes me love you all the same.

Without a second thought, you tore my heart out.

And yet you still have a hold on me, even now.

You used to love me, but now I’ve become a stain.

Just another mark on your good name.

This is for those who have been in that nightmare.

Those who were looking for love and went with the first person there.

You gave all you love, just to find they didn’t care.

I know how it feels, the long, quiet, lonely nights.

I know what its like to suddenly lose what felt right.

You’ve had enough, but you still hope to hear that voice on the phone.

We have all been there, so believe me when I say, that you’re not alone.

You have to move on, even though I know it’s not fair.

But somewhere out there is a match, someone who really cares.
        Ryan Sloan

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THE DIVIDE



I guess this is where we divide,

This wasn’t what I wanted; I just wanted you in my life.

I guess that’s not how you wanted the cards played.

Because you were dealt the hearts and I was dealt spades.

It just wasn’t our time.

I had to disappear from your life, as you left mine.

Every now and then I smile when I think about all we’ve experienced and weathered.

The night we separated, you said fate may bring us back together.

I think back now and I know that can’t be true.

It’s because I spent half a year convincing myself I’m not still in love with you.

Now we both have taken our own path.

Each of us, trying to lose a piece of our past.

After all of this, I’m actually glad that I met you.

The experience left me a little wiser and a little more cautious too.

Perhaps someday we will indeed cross paths again.

I suppose that I am forced to say farewell until then.
     Ryan Sloan

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VALENTINES DAY



I knew the moment that I saw you.

That all I had to do,

Was to show you exactly how I feel.

When I am with you, nothing else in the world seems real.

I have a feeling deep down in my soul when I look into your eyes.

I know that you can see through me, so I don’t bother to lie.

Why do I care about you? This is what I figured out while I was thinking to myself.

You keep me honest, you keep me sane, and most of all you keep my heart to yourself.

That is why for this special day it is just me and you.

Today I am at you service, I will say and do whatever you want me to.

So why am I standing here? I am just waiting to say…

I hope that you have a happy Valentines Day.

3/11/2005
      Ryan Sloan

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WISHING


If there was just one wish I could be granted.

I would have loved more, and taken more chances.

My second wish, I could tell you without a thought.

I wish that I could say that I’m sorry, to every friend I’ve ever fought.

My last wish, is my wish to you.

I wish you a happy life, that is all I can do.

I am walking away from you, because I have had enough.

Trying to maintain a relationship with you just hurts too much.

At the peak of what we had, you wanted to let me go.

Now I’ll have to do the same for you, if I change my mind I’ll let you know.

My Biggest regret is allowing myself to get this involved.

I got hurt because I let myself get caught up in love.
       Ryan Sloan

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A PROMISE



I didn’t know it was possible, but I lost all feeling in my soul.

Now I’m wishing that I listened to what I was being told.

I was the word of wisdom for many, and loved by few.

I wasn’t what you wanted, and I already knew.

For being someone people look to for advice, I should’ve seen the signs.

It didn’t matter what I told myself, everything wasn’t fine.

This is the white flag, signaling my defeat.

Because my heart has gotten colder in each passing week.

It just hurts too much for me to even care anymore.

Quite a change from when all I wanted was to be cared for.

Love has become a word that does nothing but taunts me.

The idea of true love doesn’t even resemble what it used to be.

Too many games have been played.

Too many broken promises have been made.

Know this, my promise to you will always stay true.

No matter what, I will always be there for you.

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this one is an untitled one... well at least he hasnt told me the name for it...sorry... but i love this one more than anything!

i cant begin to describe the feelings i have for you, when you look deep into my eyes, what it makes me do, my lips begin to tremble, my heart begins to ache, my knees go weak and shakey, my heart begins to quake, ive never really expressed myself, my feelings i keep in a jar, but through this poem i tell you what they really are, i feel your presence when your near, and for your touch my body cries, but when you smile and walk away,my heart, my soul, it dies, your aware, im sure you know of my everlasting devotion to you, its a game, your playin hard to get.....your toying with my emotions, in my my dreams we dance on clouds, until the morning dew, when will you realize my heart belongs to you, your my only
fantasy, the darkest hour of the night i gaze at you, i kiss your cheek , draw you close, and hold you tight, i open my eyes, looking for you at the breaking of dawn, but your gone, id give myself to the devil if i could have one kiss from you, to capture that heavenly moment, dont know what i'd do , i need your love and compassion, i need you by my side, once i thought i couldnt have your love, i cried, if i cant have your love yet ill wait till the end of time, to me the wait is worth it to b able to call you mine, tucked in the shadows or your life is a place i do not fear, because if im not with you, ill be forever near

this is by Bryan...my sexxiness

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50 THINGS GIRLS WISH GUYS KNEW..


1. Don`t tell us when you think other girls are hot.

2. Whenever pssible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

3. If you don't act like soap-opera guys, don`t expect us to dress like Victoria Secret Models.

4. Mark anniversaries on the calendar.

5. There is no such thing as "too much" spooning.

6. We think about you all the time.

7. This is how we see it Ã,»
Don't call = Don't care.

8. Which also means that if we don`t call, take a hint.

9. We like you to be a little jealous. But overly possesive is not necessary.

10. Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than knowing you much you can
bench-press.

11. Return favors: we message, you massage. we go down,
you go down. we shave, you shave.

12. Foreplay is not an option. It's a must.

13. We're allowed to be late. You're not.

14. Eye contact is key.

15. Don't take longer to get ready than we
do.

16. Laugh at our jokes.

17. 3 words: honesty, honesty, honesty!

18. Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies are stalkers.

19. We never have to wonder if your orgasm was real.

20. Do not start with us. You will not win.

21. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way?  Didn't think so.

22. If you ask nicely, we`ll answer the same way.

23. We will never have enough clothes or shoes.

24. We have an excuse for being bitchy at lest once a month.

25. Open the door for us no matter where we are.

26. We LOVE! surprises.

27. We like to be kissed softly. Not with an iron tongue.

28. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.

29. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes.
Never tighty-whities!

30. Always brush your teeth before you see us. A fresh
mouth and white teeth are a necessity.

31. Clean your room before we come over.

32. When we use our teeth, it means that you suck at going down on us, so we're just returning the favor.

33. Even though you're sometimes insensitive and hurt
us, we still love you with everything we are.

34. Hit it and quit it. Because later on i`ll be with your best friend, and he lasts for hours.

35. Don't act hard around your friends, because I won't make you hard tonight.

36. Sometimes "NO!" really means "NO!".

37. "Wife beaters" are not an adequite form of fasion.

38. If we wanted to be on video tape, we`d be a porn star.
    NOT your girlfriend!!!

39. Sensitive guys are great.. but crying more than we do in a movie just isn't right.

40. Don`t let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.

41. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.

42. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.

43. "Fat chicks" have feelings, too.

44. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling, & nasty looks add up to YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG.

45. The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable. We`ll appreciate the simple fact that you`re trying.

46. Just because a girl doesn`t pick up on the first ring, doesn`t mean she`s not waiting by the phone.

47. You don`t have to spend alot; if it means alot.

48. Don`t say you love me if you don`t mean it.

49. Don`t lie to us. We will catch you.

50. When the girls get together, we talk about everything. Meaning, my bestfriends know everything about you.