[Kayne]'s diary
Written about Tuesday 2005-03-01
Written: (7209 days ago)
Als ik morgen zou doodvallen zou het me niets kunnen schelen.
Ik leef omdat ik geen zin heb in zelfmoord maar mocht ik sterven wil ik niet dat men verdrietig voor mij is.
Wees verdrietig omdat je mij mist zoveel je wilt.
Dat zou ik niet kunnen tegenhouden.
Maar wees niet verdrietig omdat ik dood ben, omdat ik zoveel kansen gemist heb.
Elke mens is vervangbaar - dus ook ik.
Echt - als ik doodviel zou het me niet kunnen schelen.
Dood = dood.
Ik zou het zelfs leuk vinden.
Ik zou gemist worden, voor zowat de eerste keer.
Natuurlijk laat ik dan ook mensen achter die verdrietig zijn, ik zal hun ook missen.
Zolang ze maar niet verdrietig zijn omdat ik "een gemiste kans had/heb of zoiets".
Mocht ik morgen omver gereden worden bedank dan die persoon.
Rust is een mooie zaak.
Ik hou wel van het leven maar zou gerust zonder kunnen.
Rust.
Sterven is niet het eindstation.
Het leven wel.
Hou van je leven, hou van je dood.
Verpruts geeneen - eer het groot.
Niets kon ooit zijn zonder het ander.
De spanning en de rust kruisen
Daar waar het leven zal vergruisen.
Niets kan ooit zonder het het ander.
Daar waar de dood zal beginnen
Kan een mens alleen maar winnen.
Niets zal ooit kunnen zonder het ander.
En daarvoor moet men blij zijn.
Zonder een einde kan een begin nooit goed zijn.
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Written about Sunday 2005-02-27
Written: (7211 days ago)
w00y.
w00y
Citizen kayne *Ich Liebe Mich Und Dich* *W G W E* zegt:
Ik heb u graag.
M zegt:
ik u ook
M zegt:
(k)
"Proclaim eternal victory"
"Revenge will surely come"
" Tell me do you really need this
Tell me do you really care "
"We want everything to change
Cause we are afraid of losing"
"So i'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done"
Voorspellend?
"Promise to hold you close "
" It's bugging me,
grating me
and twisting me around
yeah i'm endlessly
caving in
and turning inside out
'Cause i want it now
i want it now "
" she had something to confess to "
"and I don't want you to adore me
don't want you to ignore me
when it pleases you yeah
and i'll do it on my own"
Dat laatste zinnetje is storend.
"you still want to spoil it to prove I've made a big mistak"
"can you see that i am needing,
begging for so much more than you could ever give "
" The truth burns deep inside"
"I love all the dirty tricks
And twisted games you play "
" I know you're in this room,
i'm sure i heard you sigh"
Donker?
" I know the moment's near
and there's nothing we can do "
"I wanna break the spell
that you've created"
"I tried to give you up
but I'm addicted "
En dit is nog maar van de liedjes die ik ken.
o.0
There’s a part of me you’ll never know
The only thing I’ll never show.
She had something to confess to
To reveal what you’d never shown her
Too long trying to resist it
Can you see that I am needing
Begging for so much more
Than you could ever give
And I don’t want you to adore me
Don’t want you to ignore me
When it pleases you
And I’ll do it on my own
But you still want to spoil it
To prove I’ve made a big mistake
(hadde daarstraks getypt, wa bedoelde daar mee?)
It's happening soon
To me it is new
To me it is strange
This feeling is strange
Leave me alone it's nothing serious
I’ll do it myself
It's got nothing to do with you
And there's nothing that you could do
Controlling my feelings for too long
Forcing our darkest souls to unfold
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You would try anything
And we are unloveable
'Cause you and me are both one and the same
And it's driving me mad
And I don’t want you to think that I care
You know that I care
The love for what you hide
The bitterness inside
I love all the dirty tricks
And twisted games you play on me
And Venus will arise and tear us apart
And make us meaningless again
(hopelijk ni e)
The underneath's no big surprise
Baby you're gonna lose
(jep ik win :p)
Your own game
Change me
Open minded
The truth’s unwinding
Take off your disguise
And all your underneath
I want a new game to play
(hehe)
before I disturb you in the dark
(hopelijk alleen the dark)
And pull us through
I wanna break this spell
That you've created
I wanna play the game
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted
Now that you know I'm trapped
(en nog geen klein beetje)
Lips are turning blue
(oppassen dus da we ni overdrijven)
And we'll love and we'll hate
And we'll die
And forget the reckless things we've done
(hehe)
I think our lives have just begun
Promise to hold you close
Nothing will ever stay the same
'Cause I want it now
It's holding me
(it)
And don't embrace the past
(da kan ik zelfs ni, al probeer ik)
Change everything you are
And everything you were
Revenge will surely come
There’s a part of me you’ll never know
The only thing I’ll never show.
But I won’t give you up
I won’t let you down
If the moment ever comes
(welk moment?? auwtsj pijnlijke vraag)
I know you're in this room, I'm sure I heard you sigh
(idd donker)
It scares the hell out of me
And there's nothing we can do
Take, take all you need
And I'll compensate your greed
With broken hearts
(ni doen dus)
And you're never in charge
(da hebt ge derstraks gezegd, maar wa bedoelde daarmee?)
Don't you want me ? cause I need you so
There's always something that will makes you kiss me
There's also something that I would tell you or tell me
(hehe)
There's nothing else to compare
We can fall right out of bed
(hehe da was bekans gebeurd gistere)
I can’t pretend
(ni meer :s)
Choose how it ends
(ni?)
Why can't you sleep with
Someone who'll protect you
(omda we same nooit alleen slape :p)
Cause you are afraid of losing
Tell me do you really need this
Tell me do you really care
I don’t think you really need this
I don’t think you really care
(hopelijk wel)
And you can't resist
I’ve read you well
Wish we could be far away
(weg van lastige zusjes?:p)
Can you tell me why I just want to get away?
(ja da is een vraag)
I just want to get away...
(de vraag is van wa)
With a promise
I'm hurting you again
And I've wanted you too much
And now I'm gonna lose
So please please please
Let me, let me, let me
Let me get what I want this time
(nee!)
it would be the first time
(idd)
I always hoped that things could be different
No one's noticed our loneliness
And I'll show you what you really need
So don't struggle
(ok om eerlijk te zijn was dit ni heel de zin :p)
Still she gives you
Everything you need
Is it enough
(is it enough??)
Feel
(zegt veel)
I never thought that this could come to this
(echt e)
So confused
De reden waarom mensen nooit lang met mij bevriend blijven/samen blijven.
- Ik ben dwaas.
- Ik denk anders dan de meesten.
- Ik voel me beter dan hun.
- Ik zou geen problemen hebben om iemand te vermoorden.
- Ik word bang als iemand mij te graag heeft
- en als ik iemand te graag heb.
- Ik ben een goede vriend, in mijn betekenis. Ik help op mijn manier wanneer het nodig is, en dat is niet: huil maar een keer goed uit en ik zal u altijd steunen bla bla bla.
- Ik ben moeilijk te volgen maar eis dit toch.
- Ik zal zelden aarzelen om een zwak punt aan te duiden.
1. Not admitting a mistake.
2. Insulting as usual.
3. Denying something she did.
4. Ending a relation.
5. Not getting sarcasm.
Bye, bye
09 Things You're Looking Forward To.
1) Meat [Gosu]
2) Learn to play the violin
3) "It"
4) Learning to make art
08 Things You Wear Daily.
1) Cothes
2) Bad hair style
3) Cuddling Buddy
07 Things That Annoy You.
1) You
2) Me
3) She
4) He
5) Them
06 Things You Touch Every Day
1) Cuddling Buddy
05 Things You Do Every Day.
1) Sleep
04 People You'd Want to Spend More Time or Hang out With, in order of how they came to mind
1) Gosu
2) Rien
03 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over.
1) /
02 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment.
1) Muse
01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With.
1) My clone
want na een tijdje gaan de scherpe hoekjes eraf
M zegt:
maar diep in u blijft altijd wel een splinte
Eerste wet van de magie: Mensen geloven alles wat ze willen geloven of omdat ze bang zijn dat het waar is
Tweede wet: De beste bedoelingen kunnen de kwaadaardigste gevolgen hebben.
The 7 rules of "it" a.k.a. Cuddling buddy.
1.It must be at least slightly dark.
2.One of the persons should be experienced (that means at least 8 non-serious relations and 4 "serious" relations), the other one should have no experience at all.
3.The must see each other on a regulary basis.
4.They have to tell a common friend.
5.There must be a annoying younger brother or sister.
6.There have to be serious conversations.
7.It must evolve.
Note: At least 5 of the conditions have to be furfilled.
En genoeg?
Of moeten er nog meer zijn?
Elftown Animated Tour
kayne's philosophy
Remember it!!!
" Closer "
Seksuele intriges
Photografe Christine B. loopt op een Mortselse school de jonge filosoof Loce Cossaer tegen het lijf. Er hangt meteen pijn (bijten enzo) en "het" in de lucht. Maar Lode houdt er een bizar liefdesleven op na. Vlak na zijn ontmoeting met Christine flirt hij de niet-zo-preuts
Een uniek levensverhaal en een sterk staaltje sarcastische meningen over alles maken van dit film - samen met het vernieuwende film een must voor elke filmliefhebber
Rules to which I live by
*Non yet => Obviously*
Here is the deal.
I can write aggresive.
That doesn't mean I am.
What the hell am I going to do.
Wright in capitals at you?
Fuckhead(s).
Deal with it - I can't harm you physicly so why "feel hurt" when I insult you.
You don't know me. I don't want to know you.
So fuck off.
Please.
The most retarded description ever.
Allow me to comment.
This was/is the house of [lauren talent.]
DUDES r welcomed wel ok thn so r DUDETTES Spelling - Grammar - Puntuation - Capital letters. Almost impossible to read. How is that for a welkom message.
plz ask me if u can av me msn coz i don wan random peeps tlkin 2 me
She says "ask me if you can have me on messenger cause I don't want random people talking to me". Well idiot - why don't you remove this email then? Or is that too logical for you?
tall, dark, fit n Luvin evry 1 lol!
I bet you she is small, fat, ugly and a retard. (And a racist.)
hey huniz 2 RUBY n SAZI n all ma lil dudes n dudettes lol
I have absolytly now idea what the hell she is saying here.
i luv 2 many bois lol But none like her.
green day, blink 182, gd charlotte Or maybe she ment "bands"?
i luv pink, boiz, m8s, ma mob ,ma pc, dancin ,SINGIN
*Le sigh* Depressing to read isn't it? But I continued.
i luv bak 2 the future evry single 1 of em YAY!
She loves it. But she can't spell it. Beautyfull.
I rekon these dudes rock :P
I don't
crying in the rain
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
howser
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
feeling this
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
gothicspike
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
de_matteo
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
pillow hugger
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
sexy_saz
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
saucy stazzy
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
hugh g. rection
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
kissable_chick
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
lost_guard
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
evry 1 hoo no's me
Retard or worse. (Unless he/she is on this list without giving authorisation.)
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Would she have any idea that this isn't "cool"?
dougie lee poynter
billy jo armstrong
the twins frm gd charlotte
billy frm gd charlotte
the killers lead singer - brandon flowers
mr.jones=the sexiest man ALIVE
jude law
rooster (lead singer MMM)
evry fit longish haird sk8rz
*Le sigh* I'll bet she thinks anything witch has the gender "male" is beautyfull.
i lurve all these bands in no partic order( the 1s wiv *'z r th best
No order - but then she goes of to tag the "best" groups. Hypocrit. (Does it show that I gave up on spelling remarks?)
hanson
the ataris
red hot chillis
my chemical romance*
fightstar
simple plan*
green day*
sum 41*
the killers*
steriogram*
the hives*
the strokes
bowling 4 soup*
rooster*
good cha*rlotte
white strip*es
ashlee simpson
avril lavigne
blink 182*
electric 6*
razorlight
jet*
foo fighters
lost prophets*
franz ferdinand*
goldie lookin chain
freefaller
jimmy eat world
scissor sisters*
I can not believe she actually has some good groups in it. I'll bet she just added them to look cool.
I
(l)z
ya
JOHN
YOU
ROCK
SUM
FAT
HAIRY
ASS
lol MoNoBrOw lol dOwN nOsE!!!
Fuckhead.
recently ive been makin a new frend , his name is jon he really rokz believe me
Hes gt 2 many girlfrends thy drive im round th bend hes gt about 23 if i tell ne 1 he'd kill me !!!YAY GO JOHN !!! you lil english roker ,lol
Please John. Do us all a favour and kill her. Please?
JOHN= perv, (jkin),milk lover, th best , funi, wicked, ace, top,class, wat th hell evry thin
How interesting.
ALL HAIL KING JOHN !!!!!
lol NAH DONT I ONI PUT THT SO HE FEELS
BETTER COZ HE GT NO M8Z lol
Someone is stalking someone...
jon is v.mad he likes milk he loves his sexy top hes quite a strange bt class dude frm ye olde england
he loves 2 say mongo bt he says it rong, he oni says it coz i always do!!
Serious stalking.
he LOVES little britain n is totally obsessed wiv it
With a girlfriend like you - Who wouldn't be obessed by something else?
hi 2 jon u rock sum fat hairy ass [stillicide silently falling snow.x]
hi 2 andy u rock [Pillow Hugger]
hi 2 jamie u rock [Nakednightelf]
hi 2 saz u rock
hi 2 ruby
n jus evry 1 i no
I'm having my doubts about this relation. "jon u rock sum fat hairy ass" ?
btw jon (L)s ya poem sooo much it pure whomps evry 1 s arses
The poem:
I love you so much.
I will never leave you.
Kiss me.
The end.
mY cHeMiCaL rOmAnCe ~ iM nOt oK
This is exactly what everyone wants. A retarded song.
well if you wanted honesty
that's all you had to say
i never want to let you down or have you go
it's better off this way
for all the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
remember when you broke your foot
from jumping out the 2nd story
i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out
what will it take to show you that it's not the life
it seems
i've told you time and time again
you sing the words but
don't know what it means
to be a joke and look
another line without a hook
i held you close as we both shook
for the last time-take a good hard look
i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out
forget about the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
you said you'd read me like a book
but the pages are all torn and frayed
now i'm okay, i'm okay......
i'm okay now, i'm okay now,
well you really need to listen to me
because i'm telling you the truth
I mean this
i'm okay, trust me
i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
i'm not o-fucking-kay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
i love this song its frikin ace!
No - it isn't.
support gay marriage = hoo givs a shit if ur gay? its kool
Being gay isn't cool. Being gay is as "cool" as being hetoroseksual which isn't cool either.
I'll doubt if any of the real gay people think it is cool.
i love peeps hoo play in a band espesh guitarists (bois)
Again with the boys. I'm telling you - bitch - be gay! You think it is cool and you won't harass any more males. How is that for a solution to the problem (you).
bye !!
Finally
thnx 4 chekin me out!! :P
You forced me. Now I wany my time back.
Don't you feel a retard after reading this?
I didn't. I feel like I just got to know a retard.
Damn - ik denk dage toch alle berichtjes gaat krijgen. :s
Ik dacht dak u verwijdert had :s
Mja - niks ernstig dus ja :)
Opinions of Elftown Friends
Well, thinking that I usually form an opinion of new people by comparing them to my old people, saying like "She is such a Niina Haatainen" or "my god what a Pavel Rannel that dude is!" but I can't think of anyone I knew who would be cool enough to compare you to. You're not uberly serious about stuff, so I can relate to that since I'm not like that either, but you know how to talk about interesting stuff as well... But you're not scary like some interesting people are...
in one word: brilliant.
[iippo] danke :)
I would like to nominate [Kayne]... He is involved in many wikis and helps out people. I have never seen him act aggressive towards anyone (a quality very few people I have met can boast). He is both modest and stands by his beliefs (again, I wish more people could do this)
Then of course there's his house: He has a picture and his house is organised in such a way that it is very easy to work your way around his description. He doesn't ramble. I can't see any awful quizzes and considering English is his second language, I would say his grammar and language are very mature.
Thanks [deus-ex-machina] again :)
Quotes of friends :
08:01:58 iippo: *kayne ish uber*
Disclaimer: The views expressed in this report are based solely on what I have seen from Kayne in actions on wikis and conversations. I have not read in detail in his house. Furthermore, it isn't likely this will turn out as long as the report on the non-wiki concerning its history.
Now, to begin.
Kayne (cay-n): A person on Elftown, possessing advanced knowledge, and a passion for laughing at people lesser than him (hereby referred to as n00bs). Kayne often likes to display his talents regarding wiki's. He has yet to attain official wikimancership
Kayne enjoys studying philosophy, and knows quite a few specifics, though Silvie may argue his competency on others, and usually enjoys a philisophical debate. Despite this, he abbhors religion and usually does not participate in religious discussions. Kayne is a self-proclaime
Kayne is Dutch, and not a native speaker of English. While his grammar may be lacking in comparison to some, when comparing to most native English-speake
On a final note, Kayne is married to iippo (o.O), an issue that has yet to be made clear to the author whether this is a joke or not, and does not make any sense to the auther whatsoever.
</reference to himself in third-person>
[Aradon Templar] is the author of this.
In my eyes it is.
[deus-ex-machina]
A fake solution
Less gifted greek play-writers made during their plays very difficult problems.
At the end a "god" came and solved everything.
that go was called a "deus-ex-machi
In real life situations it would therefore be a fakesolution.
in the play it is "normal".
Also this term was used for the "Nous" frrom Anaxagoras.
Sorry , I'm just happy that I know where you're name came from :p
(Ezechiël 25:17): "The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men Blessed is he who, in the nqme of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furios anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. AND YOU WILL KNOW THAT MY NAME IS THE LORD WHEN I LAY MY VENGEANCE UPON YOU."
Thanks [savonalora]
<poll:35947>
At the moment it is Damien.
Say hi to Damien people.
I have found an interesting charachter.
[Loden]
:p